As I first eyeballed these possible changes, I would get a fearful dread in my stomach. Though outwardly agreeing with the changes, inside, like a spoiled child, I felt like my heart was stamping a foot, pouting, and whining through gritted teeth, "I don't WANNA!" After a couple weeks of this charade, I decided to have it out with God over this particular issue. I articulated my true feelings and fears (this was more for my benefit, because He already knew everything). Having emptied my "Comments, Complaints, & Suggestions" box, I got up to leave. But God wasn't satisfied with only letting me vent. His aim is not to help us feel better, but to give us what is missing in our experience of Him.
His response to my whining? He reminded me of a situation with my daughter just that morning...I was trying to give Hannah a bath. Hannah did not want a bath. Hannah cried and fussed and whined and made the whole process much longer and more difficult than it had to be. In the midst of the power struggle, I said to her, "Hannah, I am your mother. I will not ask you to do something that is bad for you. Trust me. I'm not asking you to like it, but I am asking you to obey. Just say, 'yes'." As this scene came back to my mind, I felt Holy Spirit whisper lovingly into my heart, "Sarah, I am your Father. I will not ask you to do anything that will harm you. Trust Me! I am asking you to obey. Just say, 'yes'!" I melted into Daddy's great heart of love and patience for me. What a perfect Father He is! In that moment, His grace washed over me and abolished all my fears.
He then reminded me of a special Scripture He had given me to pray a couple months before: Proverbs 31:21 "She is not afraid of the snow for her household, For all her household are clothed with scarlet." I had prayed it every day faithfully, but hadn't grasped the application for my life. Finally, that verse made perfect sense to me...I do not have to fear the changing of seasons, or even the harshest of seasons, because I and all my family are covered in the scarlet blood of Jesus! In the middle of the coldness and seeming barrenness of a winter season, there is a bright and warm beauty! Though the winter is vastly different from summer, it is a time of grand celebrations and intimate closeness, filled with it's own memories and joys. I received this verse in Proverbs as a promise from God, with Him I will face the changing seasons of life with joy and peace.
For Such A Time As This
Beckah Shae
I'm just an ordinary person with so much resistance and so many hindrances
I'm just a common average woman with an ugly past, that keeps tryin to hold me back
Limitations all surround me and this world thinks that it's drowning in hopelessness
Then I hear you call my name out loud and I say yes!
Just a moment for a lifetime, For such a time as this, I say yes!
I've been chosen to arise, For such a time as this, and I say yes!
Alive awake alert, I know I don't deserve why I'm in this position
But I'm here ready to serve
Willing to lose it all, I'm answering Your call
Oh heart and soul please listen for the mandate must be heard
Your grace and favor crown me and I need Your strength around me
Cause I still fear how hard it might be
And what's worth living for, if nothing is worth dying for?
I'm gonna make a stand, I'm gonna make an echo
I'm gonna make some history, with His story!
Writing the pages of today to read about tomorrow's change
Cause I know I was made, for such a time as this
So, to anyone out there struggling to do what God has asked of you...don't be afraid of the changing seasons, there is a promise from God that the snows of life will not harm you! He is a perfect Father who has plans to prosper you. Destiny is no farther away than a YES!
Bliss to you!
Sarah